am i too kind?

hopefully not, but i guess i can't answer this simple question by myself. in some situations there are times that i know i had to barge in and fix / give solutions to a given problem, but in most cases i ended up staying silent putting up my airhead image. sometimes i know i had to comment on topics/problems but i just end up listening to what they are talking about without taking sides. should i be more outspoken, the only thing i fear if i talk is that people will feel hurt, abandoned, and cheated. yes i know some of my friends limits and i keep it to that limit, but to new people who i haven't been much with. but even though i know some limits, these limitations are usually not yet the real limit, but the limit i set for each person. being to conio again? i don't even know what that means hehehehe. lame english is the way to go for me.

maybe i just want people/anyone to be angry at me...

Feeling sick

for the last two days all i got from students was water from water jugs and water bottles. when i woke up this morning, i can feel my tonsils becoming heavy, indicating that i might have a cold, or a fever. either way i'm going to have a hard time swallowing food and beverages again.

lesson learnt don't be inbetween or be part of a water fight.

Got heated.

what causes fire? heat. just got fired from the job. it not like i'm unhappy, but in a way i was already thinking of quitting the job anyway. i don't understand peoples expectation, they always compare their success to their employees. i mean my boss could have just said "I could have all done it myself, since you just cause me delays on deadlines of open betas". heck when he hired me i only had 2 targets to learn how to assemble and troubleshoot. i don't actually care about installation and update of games and os. and i guess if i don't get fired, i will quit a few months after anyway, since i can't learn anything new at the moment.

i just get to lazy and bored easily. i guess no job would actually suit me until i learn to have better patience and a better sense of responsibility.

at least now i could dedicate time for my social life. overnights are killing me anyways. tska nakaka hiya na rin sa uncle ko...