Just hurting myself

I slowly realized that what my father used to told me is really true. (in chinese) "When you lie, you don't cheat the people around, you only cheat yourself". When he first said that to me it was weird, after a few times, i deviced a way not to tell the truth, but still telling no lies. Example: when i finish work and yet my boss tells me to patch all the games, while i install new ones. i'll just install the new one. when they ask me if i finished my task i'll say yes. i didn't finish my whole job, but i still install the new games which in turn doing my job. which they would believe, i me making a fool of myself.

although its true that i have many crushes as in. there's this person who you just feel jealous when she's with someone else. doing nothing even if i have many chances to get closer. what a fool. hurting myself... lying my way out just to escape intrigue. maybe just part of my life i'd like to keep to myself. hoping maybe i'm doing the right thing doing nothing right now. cause i could still wait and all.

i envy people having most things in life and i would always tell them "i'm happy with my simple life". heck my car is already breaking down, no matter how my uncle like to keep the car, repairing it for me to use, i just feel like, i'm left out of society in that car. no radio, and the windshield fogs if it rains. the only advantages of having that car is ... having a car, small and still has better fuel efficiency that some new cars. cellular phones, 3310 gotta love it i accidently throw the phone backwards but it still works, but of course i want to have something new. computer, yes i want a super computer with the best specs i could imagine. and have someone...

if i envy people like that what would people in the streets envy about me. the car? cellular phone? heck some people in the squatters has a better cellular phone than i have. computer, maybe some people still doesn't have those yet..

well ... shesh this life is going to be wasted if i kept on dreaming... but still don't know what to do...

Tickle

The Super IQ Test
How Smart Are You Really?
Adrian clement, your Super IQ score is 109

Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.

The way you think about things makes you a Conceptual Synthesizer. This means you easily grasp underlying concepts when learning something new. You're also able to see complex relationships between ideas that are not always apparent to other people. You're very focused in your approach to life and are not easily distracted.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Conceptual Synthesizer? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Conceptual Synthesizer. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

Hm... 109? is that good?


The Career Makeover
Adrian clement, you're an Architect!

For you, the world is like one giant puzzle, just waiting to be solved. In your undying quest for the truth, you're best at finding solutions to complex problems. Lucky for all of us, though, you love to share your brilliant thoughts. Your keen analytical skills and understanding of others makes you a vital player in the think tank. You thrive on the collaborative problem-solving process, could trouble shoot for NASA, and won't rest until the questions are answered. The world could use a few more like you.

Who's like you:
Sigmund Freud

Likely careers:
Psychologist, lawyer, market researcher, military strategist, PR strategist

Maybe I answered a wrong question.


Are You a Perfectionist?
Adrian clement, you're a Total Middle!

Appearance | Possessions | Work


less perfectionist more perfectionist

Appearance
Although you're probably very conscious of how you look, you're willing to occasionally leave your house without every hair in place and every crease in line. You're very aware of your appearance, but you don't obsess about it. You're okay with changes in your getting-ready routine, and are fine with not always looking your absolute best.


less perfectionist more perfectionist

Possessions
Looks like you take very good care of your possessions — without obsessing about them. Since you probably take pride in the condition of your things, you like to keep your surroundings in a relatively neat, organized state. But you know that every little thing doesn't necessarily have one spot it has to be in at all times, and you're just fine if everything isn't always in peak shape. That's a great attitude — being aware of, but not overly concerned about, your possessions is an effective way of extending the lifespan of your things without causing yourself undue stress.


less perfectionist more perfectionist

Work
We can tell that you prefer to turn in top-notch work and always invest a significant amount of pride in every task you take on. But you also understand that it's important to have an open mind and a flexible attitude at work. That's why you're able to occasionally let your personal standards slide a little when your employer needs you to. So you stay open to change, while at the same time remaining organized and efficient enough to plan out a day or week at a time. Keep up the good balance!

Well, just me, nothing to do. Mr. HRIM told me to try the super iq test of tickle. And I just went a bit further.

Tears

Well we watch a movie yesterday "Just Like Heaven" at G3 which was worth 160php. Took the last show 11:30pm. Very simple summary .

*SPOILER ALERT*
It was about a girl, a doctor, who was really hard working and didn't think much about anything else. The very beginnig of the story was about her sitting on a chair in a beautiful garden, woke up to reality worked... She was on the way to her sisters who set up a date for her. Until she met a car accident, which lead her in a state of coma. Then it switch to the guy, who was looking for new place to stay. By amazing forces he was lead to a sublet where the girl used to live. And found that the couch was good, I don't know what it is about the couch, and it has access to the roof top. Then, they met each other, the guy was lost and the girl, spirit, a bit lost as well but thought that the guy at first was a homeless person. Then the girl slowly realize that something was wrong with her. The guy paranoid about it tried to ward her away with different type enchantments and even called the ghost buster =D. What's worst is that the girl doesn't remember anything except for details in her sublet. Trying to find clues of whom she was. The guy and the girl started to find clues and went places. The guy then showed the girl who he was. The guy was an landscape architect, and designed the garden that the girl dreamed about. Going along a restaurant, a man collapsed with some kind of sickness, sorry I forgot, and the girl started to remember that she was a doctor. Telling the guy how to save the unconscious man. And guess what, the guy survived. Moving on, knowing that she was a doctor, she knew that she must be working at the nearest hospital. In the hospital they slowly learned who she was and what happened to her. Then she saw her sister. Remembering everything, suddenly they knew, she was about to be removed from life support the next day. Which will mercy kill her. They deviced a plan to save her. Doing everything he can to save her it was nearly to late until he kissed her. And she came back to life. But not remembering who the guy was. The girl got the apartment back. Went to the roof top and saw a garden. The guy was there and when the held hands, said her name, which made her remember, and they kissed.
*End of Spoiler*

Sorry I'm not that good in writing summaries, and I think I got some event in the wrong time. Some are just too short that I skipped the event.

As one of my buddies said these movies have the same concept, cliches. You knew what was about to happen in the end. But I mean hey, it the feeling, experience, company, and story you get.

Now for the tear part... Yes, I cried? Got sand in my eyes... I was really touched when she woke up from the coma and didn't even remember him. I mean come on, if that was me I'd run away and cry the whole day. For the things they went through and the time they spent, all ending up in nothing. Although yes, I knew he was going to kiss her since its the only thing way they could "connect" but still. Although the spirit part accidents will not happen. Imagine if someone you really loved and yet get to be with suddenly forgets(got hit on the head, traumatized, old age, brainwashed, etc, hmm... too much) you. What would you feel? At least because of this movie, I learned that when that would happen you just slowly walk away, and do something. Whether or not he/she will remember you.

Well thats me. Maybe all the people in this world might be not fell the same as I do. But that's why we're unique.

Loner

My experiece as a loner, dreamer pays off. Last friday was the worst driving nightmare I ever had. Well, Since its already december and everyone know that tutuban and divisoria area is the most human conjested area in manila. And what a time for the night market to start earlier than usual.

I was on my way to get the flashdisk from my boss. Which supposed to be just at home, but when I got there they already left for sm manila. So since I was in the old turf with old computer gaming buddies. We gossip, and exchange information. Lo and behold it was already 5pm, and everyone started to stand from their seats and pay at the register, then left. Leaving me on the way to sm manila to get the flashdisk. Looking at Jose Abad Santos I saw traffic even before reaching the stoplight of padre algue. So I went back and tried Avenida, still managing to reach CM Recto. Jome called and my cellphone battle went empty. No car radio. Rain fogging all my windows and windshield. Engine Temperature reaching 60. Non-moving traffic. What more could I ask for. So I decided to go home first. I entered Benevidez thinking the traffic would actually be a bit lighter. I was wrong. But at least the traffic was moving and I got home at around 7:30pm. My gas guage was 7/8 of the half tank, upon reaching the house it was already around 1/8 half tank. I had to withdraw just to put gasoline in my gas tank. Going back home only to find that my uncle was laughing at me. Just because I forgot that it was nearing Christmas and people(walking) don't care about cars anymore since there were more people than cars in traffic.

Well at least I got home. BTW, my water reserve for my radiator was nearly empty. It was full when I left.

Damn. Buti nalang talaga hindi ako naubusan ng gas. Wala pa naman battery cellphone ko. Buti inisip ko nalang sa kotse kung susulat ko ba to? Tapos ung cris cringle na 7 gifts na kulang ko sa college buddies ko. Brown triangle??? Bawal tombleron. Buti nalang mabilis tumakbo oras dun.