good days, bad days

my aunt came early morning with my baby cousin, which by now should be a year and a few months old. i am fraustrated over a basketball, where the heck have you ever heard of a rule where a technical automatically kicks you out the game. crappy cheaters. what else could i do, whats done is done. whats bad about it is this anger carried over the throughout the day. then it was followed by a student where i felt so irritated, heck we should be playing card games inside the school but WTH. then i lose the appetite for eating out and playing dota for some unknown reason. i just can't feel the fun today. coming home i just realized that today was chinese new year. now, listening to some tunes, hitting the keyboard, thinking of what went wrong.

tso sit

to think that i might have a long break, more than a week. i got a call, asking me if i have already brought a cd of the GIGA3 Update of RF. crap, i really need to look for a regular job. i think im better off with a regular job than killing myself with non-regular graveyard work. if i need to install that GIGA3 in 148 computer worth at least a good 10-15 mins(not including setting up) each. and a deadline of 1/25/06 morning. 2220 minutes / 60 minutes = 37 hours. the worst thing about it is i still don't have the cds, yes, that includes a "s", 3 cds to be exact. if my future would really be like what depthcharged dreamt(hopefully it doesn't actually happen). then i should really start to looking for a brand new job(waiting for graduating, stupid thesis).

the only problem that i actually encounter for these graveyard work, is that i still manage to wake up at around 8-10am, whats worst is, if i got home at around 6 i don't sleep anymore. stupid body clock won't adjust. buti pa si bigdrich, sanay na. although i won't survive on a call center since 1. my english sucks 2. i daydream a lot 3. and i get pissed off very quickly. maybe i should go parttime/regular in GCHS, although the only fun thing there is the people are... happy. hm... what if i try to apply in banks, as network admin or just a simple teller, all i wan't is a "free weekend".

Yet another I HATE MY JOB post...

hmm... 1:35am in the morning of a monday... i've started to realize what kept me from leaving this job... YES! I REALLY HATE THE WORK, but the only thing that keeps me in this joint is the reward, people, and knowledge i get, else i would have had already left this job months ago...

i mean common its not like a call center that you regularly become a vampire, or an office job like most people have. i will probably wake up later at around 9 or 10am and i bet i'll reach home today by 4:30am. ok so most of you can handle little sleep. I DON'T. cause i can't sleep until around 4:00pm on wards if i really lack sleep. i don't even think i making sense right now... well anyways ... trying to finish work don't want to lose the idea of knowing why i kept on doing this weird job.

PS i still have to work monday evening till tuesday morning so probably no gimick for monday night...

edited: just to add... hmm.. i'm waiting for them to fire me >:) since i have no replacement ATM, and i'm assuming his waiting for my friend in college to graduate. my bosses will tolerate my laziness until march or the end of summer.

The things i lack

last saturday i realized the one of the biggest mistake in my life was not being patient enough. in my years in serving my schools during summer, i always had an argument or two with parents and guardians who are enrolling at the school. i guess with this work and the new game im playing im starting to get a bit of more patience. why? work... i always have to wait for people to finish before i could even start, and everytime i work is late night. the weird thing is, i always wake up way before lunch usually 9 or 10 unless if i got home when the sun rises. game - RF Online this game is one of the hardest, farming, and grinding game i've ever played. you be stuck in 1 place for days and weeks and your still in the mid levels. if that wasn't patience i don't know what is.

i lack courage, kicking and hiding watching horror/suspense movies. starting a conversation with someone im not yet very close to. and being afraid of speaking my mind out.

i still lack many things that i don't even know yet. oh yeah... im afraid to be hated, i just don't know why...

Yet another week/month late night work...

since the ending of the celebration for new years. i have to resume work, maintenance and new games come into the scene leaving me again with no time for gimiks. but there's something in this job that keeps me going, yet keeps me unhappy. it keeps me going due to the knowledge i aquire and new skills i learned. but keeps me unhappy due to the fact that i can't do anything else. heck who can handle 176 computers in just one week. its just fraustrating. and you have to consider it has to be late night so that there will be a LOT LESS number of customers. except for 2 shops which closes full house. keeps me waiting for hours. hopefully ill finish everything by the 3rd week so that i could have fun again...>.<